Monday, August 23, 2010

The Fall

At a creation/evolution debate I attended many years back, I heard this story. In the story a man sits on his rooftop and prays for God to save him from the flood he finds himself in. Moments later a boat arrives. The man shoes the boater off, "My God will save me." he declares. Then a helicopter arrives and receives the same treatment, "My God will save me!" the man calls out. Meanwhile the waters climb up the sides of his house and his roof sinks lower and eventually he drowns. In heaven, he asks God, "Why didn't you save me?" God says, " I sent you a boat, I sent you a helicopter and you refused both."

Well, on Saturday morning I was that man. My circumstances have given me three different situations telling me that I am no longer fit to bear babies the last being a vascular surgery I need on my legs but if I take the surgery the baby making stops. So, I was in prayer, "Lord, I really want more babies. If I can have more babies please send me a huge sign that loudly proclaims this as possible. I am a ditz Lord and I need it told to me in a very big way what you intend for me to do."

And guess what? He did. I was in my kitchen prepping breakfast when it happened. I fell on a large puddle of water from the cooler. And I fell hard. I landed right on the vein that was supposed to be removed. It hurt something terrible and swelled up to the size of my fist. I could barely take off my restricting pants. Later on, it receded but left behind is a plum colored bruise about 4 inches square. It hurts to walk, to stand from sitting, to shower. Pain is my new shadow. Lurking around every corner. But I know that pain is my body arriving in a helicopter or a boat telling me something is up and I need to fix it.

Now, surgery is inevitable. The next day, I heard my pastor proclaim the good news that he and his wife were expecting. He was so elated you couldn't help but partake in the celebration. This just goes to show the sovereignty of God. While he closes one womb he opens another. I have learned to be content with what is before me and instead of fighting all those the Lord is sending me in efforts to help, I will accept it. Thank you Father for answering my prayer...before I sunk any deeper.

1 comment:

  1. It is such a blessing to have peace from the Lord. I'm glad you see his hand on your life, Celi. It is huge at your age to be given news of no more biological children but we hold fast that God knows best. Love you, sister.

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